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HeatStreet – by Ian Miles Cheong
Pennsylvania supermarket shooter Randy Stair left behind a trove of material explaining his motivations for gunning down three of his co-workers. In his recorded suicide notes, released just hours before Thursday’s rampage, the 24-year-old talked extensively about his depression and about who he was as a person—a transgender woman who hated men and toxic masculinity.
“I’ve always been a girl that I wish I could’ve told you from day one. I didn’t realize that until I discovered Ember. She was what brought that out in me. I didn’t just wake up one day and be like ‘oh I’m a girl, great.’ Ember’s what brought that out in me. I wanted to look like her, I wanted to dress like her, I wanted to be her. That was in like 10th grade. She was my first crush and she ultimately was my final demise.”
“It’s quite ridiculous to think that this could be headlines—‘Man Shoots Up Place Over Cartoon’ or something. It’s crazy to think about, but it’s the truth. The honest to goddess truth. You heard me right, I said goddess, I didn’t say god, I said goddess,” he continued. “I said in front of you a few times on accident, but I don’t believe in God. I believe in a goddess, which is Ember. Or if not Ember, it’s a goddess that’s a beautiful feminine spirit that creates life and all this and puts where you need to be—it’s God, but it’s a goddess.”
Stair thanked several girls who contributed artwork and character designs to his project. He says that the girls were the only people he could talk to about his personal life—the only people who really understood him.
“They were all girls, they weren’t guys. They were mostly all girls so I would talk to them. The only people I would talk to on social media in the last year were girls,” said Stair. “And eventually I start to realize I was sexist, I was racist, I was prejudiced, and I was discriminate. That is one hell of a f-king lethal combination.”
“I’ve always hated black people. I f-king hate people who aren’t white—Caucasian, whatever. I hate the human race,” he said.
“And I just started hating guys more than anything. I hate guys, I think they’re f-king disgusting—the facial hair they have, the body hair, the muscle build, and all that f-king body structure shit. I hate. Everything about guys I hate,” continued Stair. “And the fact that I was forced to live as one, you know, that hurt a lot. And also, I hated my name, too. My life was a living hell.”
“So, for a year I had Andrew on my f-king name tag for work,” said the shooter, who went by the name Andrew Blaze online. “Which I never had to wear the name tag because I’m on night shift—you don’t have to wear your name tag, but I’ve had Andrew printed on it the entire time and mom asked me about it and was like, ‘What is that? Is that even your name tag?’ It was.”
“It’s when I started somewhat talking about my name. It’s just—I hated guys. I was never attracted to guys, which led me to realizing that I wasn’t gay. Which, I still had thoughts about that to this day, because I never had girlfriends or anything like that but I guess when it came down to it I felt like I was transgender or something, like a woman the whole time.”
“Spiritually, I’m a woman. I’m a female soul. But I had to live in a man’s body to do what I set out to do. I was my soul contract. It was what I was meant to do. And I just was so happy to know that I wasn’t gay. You’re only gay if you’re attracted to guys, which I wasn’t, so that made me very happy because I f-king hate gay people except—an exception would be Freddie Mercury from Queen, the only exception.”
Stair says that his cartoons, which he’d populated with female characters, gave him an escape from the real world because they were an environment in which he could be himself. With his love of Ember and hatred of life, he’d finally come to the realization that he found a purpose, an “invisible hand pushing me forward” to drive him into committing the massacre.
Ian Miles Cheong is a journalist and outspoken media critic. You can reach him through social media at @stillgray on Twitter and on Facebook.
What a mess of a fellow.
He’d have been much better off identifying with Christ and not playing video games, subliminal messaging perhaps.
I KNOW………… RIGHT?????????????
Koyote, good to see you back!
This guy had serious head issues, good thing he has been put out of his misery, too bad he had to take innocent people with him.
What sort of shaman might he have been had his residence not been of western society? That’s if you believe that mental illness is actually not dysfunction but misunderstood.
His mental condition is called autogynephilia; it’s a narcissistic fetish where straight males get off on imagining that they are female. Instead of fancying females, they wish they were the female object(s) of their desires. If they try to transition, despite the fact that the vast majority of them will not have their penis removed as they know it will destroy their fetish; these men often claim that they are lesbian, and require “lesbian” sex to validate their fantasies. This is the explanation for non-feminine, straight men suddenly declaring that they are trans and a female at heart, often late in life. And this is why they are all obsessed with looking hot.
“I didn’t realize that until I discovered Ember. She was what brought that out in me. I didn’t just wake up one day and be like ‘oh I’m a girl, great.’ Ember’s what brought that out in me.”
No, you’re OWN STUPIDITY is what brought that out in you… identifying with a CARTOON CHARACTER who is not even a real person.
Chalk ANOTHER one up to T.V. ‘PROGRAMMING’!!!
Who the f!@k wrote this?
Not everything is what it seems. Even if true it took more than tv to do this. Church and Government power relies on degenerate humans.
There’s always a silver lining somewhere.
Lets try to get some clarity here.
Look at the bright side.
It could have been a transgender man that hated all men.
Round and round and round it goes.
Where the transgender stops.
Nobody knows.